today's saturday...yesterday i had training than we went to the home econs room we had tang yuan...our form teachers made for us....well don't know what got over me that day i cried....really don't know why just had feeling of guilt..probably now that sir willie is gone i felt so indebted....honestly i was told to say sorry to him but i didn't have the chance to do so....my teacher told me to call him and apologise as sir willie sort say goodbye to her that he's going off to another school to teach insted of henderson....and to say indirectly or rather directly my fault...probably that's why i ended crying...i totally lost control i just had to cry....i feel so ashamed to face my teacher and those sj members who always to look up to sir willie...and staffs and the mams in sj...the look they gave me its like.."its all her fault that's why sir willie went away...."
i'm feeling very stressed up....the prefect's interview...i knew i would not be able to pass....which is why i intend to tell mr chia i want to quit this minute...i'd rather quit myself than be embarrased in front of everyone else...its the dignity i'd rather be left with more than anything else...i don't know if i should...