today's a horrid day!!! i found out that Syafiqah had gone to see the doctor which is a good thing but the freaking doctor said she has to stay out of school for 2 days..well that's ok for me so long as she comes back but what made me sad was not that she can't come for training for the next two weeks it was the fact that she was no longer a reserved but a steward !!! WTH ?! i'm not trying to be selfish here by insisting that Syafiqah should be the reserved and no one else that Syafiqah should risk her life just to be with us to be the reserved...its just that when i thought of Syafiqah put in soo much effort and she had her operation she still comes for regular trainings and tahan soo much and now not only did she not get into comp team she did not even get to be a reserved and totally demoted her to be a steward?!!?! like what the H*** !!! its really very unfair they said that syafiqah don't mind than why should i cry over it? but i really can't help myself....my heart goes out to Fiqah and because she's my friend i can't pity her as she'll feel more upset...how i wish i could control myself the next training when i see her if not than i'll break down and start crying....when i thought of the happy and sad times we've been through in trainings....it really breaks my heart that now it happen like that...especially Fiqah,..she's such a nice pretty and adorable girl and she's only 14..she has to face so many problems her leg cramps..her appendix pain..her down-stairs pain...heard from Rai she has low blood pressure....hais...don;t what to do now...we need to select a reserved as the mams tiink that Eunice can't take over Jes Jes if she hyper ventilate neither can she take over if Rai down-stairs pain or can't shout timing so the mams say want put her in NA team as steward..i don't noe larhs!! i very confused now larhs!! tml got ballet exam than so many things happen...