Oh well...today's kind of...actually not that bad either...today went to class to collect my results...MY GRADE 4 results the previous exam I took....guess its not bad..but...nvm... anyways today before I left house I told my mum that there was no class today....because I had to collect my results...and I told her I was going out with my friend today....she sort of flare up that's cause she thought I was lying to her about me not having class today...she thought I'm gonna skip class and go out....it made me cry man!!!!~ and what's worst was what she said to me straight into the face.... it made me cry immediately....sort of hated her for that....oh well I just stormed out of house...gave her a stare before leaving....thought I was horrid but...at that moment..at that point of time...I really hated her to the core...pushing away the fact that she's my mum.....sometimes I'd wish she was DEAD....it sounds evil and unfilial...but yeah..that was first thought that came into my mind....I TRULY FIND IT HARD TO LOVE YOUR MOTHER....at times....speaking of class...I went to ballet today to expect a whole lot of parents outside..but to my amazement....THERE'S CLASS GOING ON TODAY!!!~ i swear i totally had no idea about this!!!~ I thought just last tuesday(oh well I actually meant the TUESDAY that just past)...she said there's was no class..well actually she didn't say it straight from her mouth...certain people asked her about class this sunday..she just said yeah..but I clearly heard certain people asked her if we needed to wear our leotards and tights for class she says....NO....and heard thenm asking if its true..she went YEAH....wonder if I'd hear it wrongly..hais..and yeah there's class....so paiseh!!!~ but all went well after all...she was kind of unhappy about the fact that I was late AGAIN for 30 MINS-that makes HALF AN HOUR!!!~ oh well....and oh she was saying about herself being unable to contact me on my handfone....I guess that's when the others are notified about there's class this SUNDAY...and that FREAKS me out.....blame my MUM!!!~ She refused to return me my fone....nvm....so, there's class and after class...stayed to collect my results...and forgot to mention...my mum came to HENDERSON CC to find me....she came to ask if my results were out yet..and I told her I had class...told her to go off to church...the fact was I didn't want her to sit with me to get my results...oh well...anyway she came also to ask if I wanted money for my outing....swore that my heart totally melt...she's like back to her tender...gentle...loving self....but when I thought about the fact that she must be here to see if I'd skip class....and know what? MY HEAD SAYS NO AND MY HEART SAYS YES...or rather MY HEAD SAYS YES AND MY HEART SAYS YES...too...I don't know...I have no idea....why is it always me doubting her or actually the both of us doubting the other....oh well.....nvm. speaking of results....I got 73 MARKS AND ITS LIKE 2 MORE DAMN MARKS TO DISTINCTION!!! I went out the door and totally screamed my head off!!!~ ITS LIKE 2 MORE MARKS!!!~ wahlao!!! WHY WOULDN'T THE EXAMINER JUST GIVE ME 2 SYMPATHY MARKS!!! WHY?!?! I swear I felt like dying when I realised I was just GOD-DAMN 2 marks away!!!!~ AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!~ freak it!!~ forget about it..... What's BEEN done is DONE!!!...NO POINT CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK...LOls~ after that went out... .felt SORRY to a certain SOMEONE....sorry...SORRY FOREVERYTHING.....SORRY!!! with sincere apologies....anyway what we planned didn't proceed well..though....SORRY to a certain SOMEONE!!!~ but thank you anyways...for being to patient with everything....THANK YOU!!!~