YO!! updating of blog..XD today was a much better day than yesterday was...I was suppose to be ar class this morning but didn't make it in time..oppsie....oh well than I was suppose to be at school today at 12pm...apparently, I was late again, I reached at 12.40pm instead..oh well poor Eunice came on time..Rai was late too by the way heehee...saw her outside school and walked in together...Clement Sir was there too..so was Benjamin...[i tiink it spells like this] heehee...oh well nvm...did packing of orientation goodie bags...Rai and Clement Sir left about 2.40pm...than its only left with me, Eunice and Benjamin..Haha!! Than Sebastian came say about 3plus...than the chaos came in....we left sickbay about 4plus going 5pm....both me and Eunice together with Sebastian went to eat at the hawker centre..Eunice said she would follow me to Tiong to fix my Heels..but didn't cause she says it was late le..she has to be home le..than I told Sebastian to follow me lo..haha!! Anyway at Tiong we met Qian ai mam..she was like OMG?! Me with SEBASTIAN?! @ TIONG?! haha!! we look wrong bahs..but he's just there as my companion thats all...heehee!! dont tiink wrong worrhs..oh well that's about today le..tml's gonna an boring day again... sainx

Hey, OMG, I'm freaking out staying at HOME..today..Christmas EVE was good, our family had home cooked black pepper crab and chilli crab, we also had fried bee hoon, drank champagne...ate Haggan dazz ice cream- Belgian Chocolate and Midnight cookie Chocolate...hais...everything seems fine until Christmas night. I wreak a Big havoc and I'm soo dead...now, I'm being restricted to freedom from then on, I'm not even allowed downstairs, even from the short path from my house to my grandma's I even had to be accompanied to make sure I wouldn't run off to the shops near my house....Neither am I allowed to be home alone?! It feels like I'm in a girls' home or something! oh well not girls' home, at my own home. I thought my Family hates me anyway. or probably they don't they just detest me for being such a burden to them. I hate Family outings too cause I'm always the left out one, the unwelcome one. On the other hand my brother seemed to welcomed, so loved, so wanted. Is it because He is being the good one? That's why? I don't know..I've no idea at all anyway. Hais. Will being good actually be accepted? I wished. Maybe it'd be good if someday I realise that my own family now isn't at all my real family...that i actually had a wealthy family, a caring brother and a loving smaller sister..how great would that be? And I get everything little thing I requested for....especially everlasting Freedom..hais..If only it came true...hmms...Today I'm at home and I'm feeling just so lazy to do anything. Yesterday was better for me I guess..went over to my aunt's house baked CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!! myself!! m7y auntie baked Kueh Lapis...hees..its eggy..Haha!! I MISS SCHOOL!!! I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!!! I MISS SJAB!!! I MISS EVERYTHING WHEN I'M AT HOME!!!! I MISS MR THONG!! cause he's not going to be back in school anymore..hais...what am I to do when I meet problems?? The last time cause He is in my class, he could help me out when I'm down...but guess not anymore....hais....I THOUGHT...HE IS A VERY SPECIAL TEACHER. HE REALLY IS...HOW I WISHED HE COULD STAY LONGER.....

你知道吗。。。

一个

芭蕾舞者在原地旋转的时候必须先锁定一个目标才不会摔倒。。。

小的时候，我是看着妈妈和老师对我的期望而旋转，

希望有一天我能看着上帝旋转。

因为他是我的力量，

纯粹是因为他爱我。

Back here...long time since I posted..heehee. Past few days weren't really alright..Grandma was admitted to the hospital, everyone was dead worried about her....Had training but yesterday was cool...was an OMG thing heehee..=X [not obliged to say anything]....Lols..attendance didn't improved either...but! yesterday there was Kenneth! Haha!! but! Gleen was so Missing In Action...haha!! =P OK, about me being stupid that I'm a FAILURE and stuff..yes, although there isn't Perfection in me cause I did wrong things too...which makes me feel like I'm a failure cause I'm regretting..BUT! there are times when I felt that I wasn't at all a Failure cause what I did was right and it makes me feel that I've got the capability to do more and better!! Haas! Me and my super positive thinking today! Lols...Somehow nothing really spoils my mood today.


To Me:
Making Mistakes Means Giving Yourself a Chance To Be Replace By Others

Its been ages huh since I last uploaded my post...hmms..I'm feeling very very down now..I dont know why....I'm lazy to do work...school work...SJ work...everything. I just want to rot...haiyoo...just now I tried to do school homework online..I look at sooo many Chinese word...I read the passage than I don't understand leh...do first question than wrong le..than don't feel like doing le...hmms, I tried doing research for the past 2 days...I found nothing leh....somemore by this saturday need hand in worrh...I've no idea what to do now..I very blank lehs..how? Tried to call Eunice for help she didn't pick up phone..hais..now how? I later still got ballet class..hope my mood will be bettter...hmms...Ms Chandran overseas, still not back and Comp Team attendance is Horrible..yesterday's training was as bad as before...Rachel is on holiday, Rajes still can't be back, Priscilla's never back, Eunice is sick, Syafiqah's having fever, Randy has fallen sick too....Aishah's upset with training yesterday...tiink she's pissed...My mind's not working at all...I'm slacking my days away....everytime I tried to do something....it just never turns out good enough and its making me want to give up on it..which is not right. What to do now? The first thing on my mind now is I need help to complete my task....hais, I'm such a failure. Speaking of me being a failure...yeaterday Sebestian during training time said I'm such a Failure...It struck me...somehow I just kept quiet...probably I really am. No matter what I do..others is always so much better....I'm not trying to be better than others just at least I wished I wasn't a Failure that's all....