Hey, OMG, I'm freaking out staying at HOME..today..Christmas EVE was good, our family had home cooked black pepper crab and chilli crab, we also had fried bee hoon, drank champagne...ate Haggan dazz ice cream- Belgian Chocolate and Midnight cookie Chocolate...hais...everything seems fine until Christmas night. I wreak a Big havoc and I'm soo dead...now, I'm being restricted to freedom from then on, I'm not even allowed downstairs, even from the short path from my house to my grandma's I even had to be accompanied to make sure I wouldn't run off to the shops near my house....Neither am I allowed to be home alone?! It feels like I'm in a girls' home or something! oh well not girls' home, at my own home. I thought my Family hates me anyway. or probably they don't they just detest me for being such a burden to them. I hate Family outings too cause I'm always the left out one, the unwelcome one. On the other hand my brother seemed to welcomed, so loved, so wanted. Is it because He is being the good one? That's why? I don't know..I've no idea at all anyway. Hais. Will being good actually be accepted? I wished. Maybe it'd be good if someday I realise that my own family now isn't at all my real family...that i actually had a wealthy family, a caring brother and a loving smaller sister..how great would that be? And I get everything little thing I requested for....especially everlasting Freedom..hais..If only it came true...hmms...Today I'm at home and I'm feeling just so lazy to do anything. Yesterday was better for me I guess..went over to my aunt's house baked CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!! myself!! m7y auntie baked Kueh Lapis...hees..its eggy..Haha!! I MISS SCHOOL!!! I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!!! I MISS SJAB!!! I MISS EVERYTHING WHEN I'M AT HOME!!!! I MISS MR THONG!! cause he's not going to be back in school anymore..hais...what am I to do when I meet problems?? The last time cause He is in my class, he could help me out when I'm down...but guess not anymore....hais....I THOUGHT...HE IS A VERY SPECIAL TEACHER. HE REALLY IS...HOW I WISHED HE COULD STAY LONGER.....