Its been ages huh since I last uploaded my post...hmms..I'm feeling very very down now..I dont know why....I'm lazy to do work...school work...SJ work...everything. I just want to rot...haiyoo...just now I tried to do school homework online..I look at sooo many Chinese word...I read the passage than I don't understand leh...do first question than wrong le..than don't feel like doing le...hmms, I tried doing research for the past 2 days...I found nothing leh....somemore by this saturday need hand in worrh...I've no idea what to do now..I very blank lehs..how? Tried to call Eunice for help she didn't pick up phone..hais..now how? I later still got ballet class..hope my mood will be bettter...hmms...Ms Chandran overseas, still not back and Comp Team attendance is Horrible..yesterday's training was as bad as before...Rachel is on holiday, Rajes still can't be back, Priscilla's never back, Eunice is sick, Syafiqah's having fever, Randy has fallen sick too....Aishah's upset with training yesterday...tiink she's pissed...My mind's not working at all...I'm slacking my days away....everytime I tried to do something....it just never turns out good enough and its making me want to give up on it..which is not right. What to do now? The first thing on my mind now is I need help to complete my task....hais, I'm such a failure. Speaking of me being a failure...yeaterday Sebestian during training time said I'm such a Failure...It struck me...somehow I just kept quiet...probably I really am. No matter what I do..others is always so much better....I'm not trying to be better than others just at least I wished I wasn't a Failure that's all....