Yo...hmms its been years since I last updated my blog lehs..and yeah blame my bnrother larhs kept hogging the computer lorhs...whatever larhs...hmms had FEVER lehs!!~ since tuesday...was send home early morning came school yesterday had to stand at the back of the class lorhs cause didn't bring my worksheet and yesterday had MOI...I did horribly....had ballet class at pasir ris too reach there damn late larhs its like class gonna end....les...hmms..wasted my trip all the way there....at least still got practise a little larhs....got my ribbons..too.

hmms..and yeah today's my ballet exam...27th august at crown centre...woke up in the morning felt my back aching like hell...today I felt useless again...hais...didn't do as well as I expected during the exam..hais...barre work wasn't as good..center work isn't that good either lost my balance during one of my A-DASH..no idea how to spell...I also almost lose my balance during my DA-VAL-PAYS...no idea how spell either...hmms...my turns were ok...manage to keep my balance and yeah my FREE ON-SHA-MONDS...weren't that good either my brain seems to have gone off when told to do my A-SOM-BLES...hais...FA-MEI...i forgot too..lucky I wasn't the first to do if not I wouldn't be able to copy...hee hee..but I'm the first in the group of 4..lehs...so unfair lorhs..herh..every year also like that de...had FEVER after my exam...temperature rose all the way up to 38.6 degree celsius..hais was suppose to vist my child care but...was too sick to travel there went home to sleep and temperature went down...thank goodness..hmms thanks to a certain someone....THANK YOU...thank you for everything... for today....

Sorry to RAJES...couldn't accompany you today..I'm sorry...and anyway tml has cca was suppose to be excited but this time I'm not excited lehs..very horrid abt tml today...a certain someone had to leave really early...SADS...hmms..ohoh something to happy about..MAM TING TING will be back to HSS tml lehs...XD finally she has time to be back really miss her..lols XD last week saw MAM HWEE ING..wanted to say hiie to her but couldn't was busy..sdas...hope she'll be back soon...really miss them..LOTS..XD last week saw mam ting ting too...was full of smiles!!~ hee hee the funny thing here Mam Nerissa got a little jealous there...hahahaha!!!~

speaking of the both of them hors...tiink that day went to catch a movie the where got ghost show...got shocked by MAM TING TING LARHS..HAIYOO...i learnt something that day never to watch horror movies with people as playful as her cause she'll scare you even if the movie is a comedy..hahahahaha!!! no offence here...had fun...that day...wah she make me speechless lehs until I had to apologise...hee hee..XD

Looking forward to TOMORROW...XD

To whoever who hates me alright....WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU WANT ME TO DO??? just tell it out alright instead of spamming and stuff....anyway I don't see a reason why you should do this despite the fact that you're standing up for aishah...if you aren't happy with me why not you bring you and your friends over we'll talk things out and settle in peace alright instead of doing lowdown acts like spamming and not telling who in world are you....I believe you didn't want me back with aishah either cause yeah as what you think she's too marvelous for me...if i can't do this or that what do you suggest than....I never once regret the path I took and I'm not what you make me out to be....not what you said as I'm dumping old friends for new..or whatsoever....its the truth that I did choose others over you this bunch of people but to me others are more worthwhile than you this bunch of people and the others I'm refering to are my true friends...I suppose you haven't got any TRUE FRIENDS have you??? that is why you aren't able to think in my point of view...the friends you have now some may be long-lasting some may not be... but the problem is you....your so called long lasting friends may too leave you one day as you're never true to them...maybe you are now but gradually you'll realise that they...your bunch of friends now are probably not your true friends...no offence here....why not you'll tell me what to do than....I'm not trying to say you shouldn't interfere or stand up for her i understand that you're just doing what a friend would do....anyway yeah you WIN....you totally prove to aishah that you're probably a true friend of hers but....for now...and...you made me realise how lowdown you are....that you have to resort to down and dirty huh? whatsoever....you could take that as I'm giving you a chance to prove to her your worth-ness your capabilities....and you ought to thank me that i made her realise it fast that I'm probably not the kind of 'true' friend she's after...I WAS ENCOURAGED TO END THINGS FAST EVEN IF I HAVE TO DO UNPLEASANT THINGS AND...I NEVER ONCE REGRET WHAT I DID....thanks I-R-S-H-A-D.....herh

hmms..hiie PEOPLE...LOls..I thought my science teacher is really that motherly....hees...i tiink its yesterday bahs certain things happen in our class after recess...during science class...the OM came up and reprimand certain students in our class for locking Mrs soong outside the class...I tiink so...smething like that...and...yeah she was angry...after apologosing certain people became being kinda rude to her and yeah...she flared up....FOR THE FIRST TIME....never seen like that before..got really scared....she's the kind of person that often gets despised by certain people who don't understand her...and she's different in a unique way..i must say....she often take the blame and compare herself to other teacher of her incapability......she kept saying sorry and stuff it made me feel bad....haas....hmms..oh well.....it takes quite some time to understand one's good intentions...she also kept reapeatinglike..."SO SORRY, I'M NOT AS GOOD AS MS CHANDRAN NOT AS FUNNY AS SHE IS...." I don't like the fact that she is self-reproaching..... its not her fault and she's trying her best to make her lessons interesting...but some irritating people in our just simply don't apreciate her intentions and often show disrespect to her...I DON'T LIKE THAT...she don't deserve this kind of treatment, she's a teacher and she ahs been really lenient to those certain idoits in our class....and they took it for GRANTED...how could they??? its really mean.....although she clearly knows that certain students don't like her and talk about her behind her back she tolerated all these nonsense and tehy took it for granted...and I DON'T DENY THAT I HAD GOSSIP ABOUT THAT ISSUE BEFORE...oh well that's past..and I'm starting to regret it yeah~....*everyone deserves a chance...* and certain people just refuse to give her that chance....hais..NVM...irritating idoits.....I'm surprised that she doesn't burst a blood vessel just by giving in to them..ALWAYS...*herh*
Quit talking about that issue.....AISHAH~ she's recently piled up with problems...and the only way I can help her is by informing Ms Chandran....but I'm afraid she might be upset...she doesn't want to inform her about it....but..I WANT TO HELP HER..seeing her so depressed..it really makes my heart ache.....I know I should have my stand in this kind of situation....but..yeah~ I'm confused.....seriously...~
Today..kinda horrid day though....not really that horrid....*if YOU're reading this....*
-SORRY, I really want to tell you but....I can't bring myself to....the words just drifted to my mouth but I just couldn't say it....I'm afraid of your reaction and what will you tiink of me....I could rite it all down but..I can't bring myself to show it to you.....I....I'm sorry.....I know you are seriously horridly curious....please believe me that I really want to tell you everything but at times I just am not courageous enough to say it all out let alone write it all down for you....I love you so much that I couldn't bear to let you know this ugly truth....you said you want to know....you'll be surprise and shocked...and these two words are not just written for the sake of writing...seriously.....forgive me....blame me for everything alright....sorry again..even though sorry isn't what you'll want to hear but I still want to say it....SORRY....to euu....*Loving someone isn't that easy....that's cause you'll soon realise that you are afraid to tell her everything...especially when its ugly...*

Hmms....its really cool huh...felt really blessed and cherished...even though sometimes things happen and made me hate life and felt like dying but thinking of the people who love me I'd never want to die...I guess the reason for making me hanging on to my pathetic life now are the people that love me and never gave up on me...I really love them and I finally understand when people say that LOVE CAN'T BE EXPLAINED...that's cause when I try to tell someone how much I loved her...It'd be very hard to explained...hmms...=)
Anyway who-ever is the LESSON FROM THE LEPER...thank you very very much!!!~ it's really comforting to hear that from you(the unknown)...LOls...looks like you are really secretive about your real identity huh...oh well...Its lovely that you care...THANK YOU...~ *looking forward to your next post...!XD*
Have no idea how to continue...what can I rite??? oh well I'm slightly irritated by my brother and I don't wished to discuss this stupid issue any further...whatever....love the song a certain someone sent me...XD...THANKS~ thanks to SJ I get to know all my real close friends there....GOD gave me a special gift on my birthday...ALL OF YOU AND A CERTAIN SOMEONE...even if I didn't get a gift on my last birthday-*(maybe I did, But i couldn't rmb..if anyone who gave me a gift read this PLEASE DON'T BE OFFENDED...I didn't meant to FORGET..SORRY IN ADVANCE..)* but I got you-all unknowingly...its fate...my gifts are always so mysterious...I LOVE YOU-ALL...loves..always...

Hellorhs people...Lols..hmms all's fine now I guess despite the fact that I got irritated by my mum yesterday and I was horribly stubborn...hmms oh well that's me...! and...Friday was kind of a peaceful day...I guess...all was peaceful until I went home and there's a awkard silence between me and my aunt...whatever...hmms...had a horrible time taking the sec 1's though and I admit I was in a bad mood the day before friday and yeah...I'm sort of impatient in teaching....anyway sorry....hees...LOls and on that same day we went to buy stocks JOO YEE, RAJES etc...went with her and yeah the wednesday post...sorry...patched up somehow and I somehow got scared of her...she freaks me somehow...became so fierce and...the feeling is so cold...I guess that's why I'm afraid...of her...the thought of her going with me that day seriously shocked me a little...but it turned out fine..hmms...glad that its ok...!!~ LOls...but for a while she sort of changed into another person a sort of cold one...and she has an aura around her that gives people shivers at times...I guess it has to do with SJ that's why..hmms oh well...but seriously if I'd ever quarrel with any senior I'm close with is definately because of SJ..that's cause that's the only link we have that connected the both of us....and on that day I asked myself HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE AFRAID...I guess its more than just normal afraid..what I actually meant is the feeling of not being able to find a certain someone and you started panicking...I hated that feeling...when I'm unable to find a certain someone and it made me realise that she knows everything about me but I knew nothing about her...its like whenever I'd go off and cry or emo ahe'd be able to find me... but when she does that I couldn't find her..and I got really scared...but what's the use it shows how much I don't know about her...hais...its sickening...I hope anyway that we wouldn't quarrel again...leaving SJ out of the picture....and oh on FRIDAY my co-form teacher is leaving school she's going of to study in university and I cried that's cause when she says her first co-form class was us...2E4...hugged her and I cried..got all of us a keychain specifically carved our names onj it and it made me cry more than ever..I MISSED HER...and LOVES always....XD

hiie...hmms...sometimes I think my English teacher is just soooo COOL....somehow....and somehow I think that 2e4 gets the best teachers.....! LOls....the teachers always happen to be so caring..in 2e4 and thank goodness for that....I guess sometimes cdertain people in my class just simply thought that our English teacher is just simply weird and overly dramatic....whatever...sometimes I get too carried away indulging in gossips about our English teacher...BUT...until that day he handed me a BIG BOOK and until I saw the tagg in my blog....(I thought that tagg sound so HIM).....maybe and I hope it is..!~ He's just simply unique.....in his own COOL way..haas..I thought....maybe he's the second generation of...erm...another caring teacher but it happens so that he's a male...hahahahas!!!~ oh well that's great and oh I read something from him and I thought that it simply sound so TRUE...mostly..haas....LOls....problems have been occuring lately and I think too much but I thought I'm a burden to certain people...a trouble and I don't understand WHY WOULD PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW THINGS THAT THEY KNOW WOULD UPSET THEMSELVES?...is this some psychological barrier??? and I too don't understand why friendships are like that in a sense...FRIENDSHIP is suppose to MAKE(s) PEOPLE HAPPIER BUT IT CAN ALSO BREAK THEIR HEARTS....??? well why? are we indulging too much in friendship to a certain extend that its heart-breaking enough??? to leave a friend...? oh well, I guess so...hated that fact....and I JUST realise that in friendship...there are bounds to have quarrels....and I too JUST realise I can almost burst a blood vessel talking about ONE issue that linked the both of us....together...the SIMILARITY...I found out that we COULD almost quarrel...for the first time.....over a single issue....

SO EXACTY HOW LONG IS 'JUST' ???
*similarity....*

if anyone can actually figure out..that 'one' must have really know WTH i've been blabbering on.....