hmms..hiie PEOPLE...LOls..I thought my science teacher is really that motherly....hees...i tiink its yesterday bahs certain things happen in our class after recess...during science class...the OM came up and reprimand certain students in our class for locking Mrs soong outside the class...I tiink so...smething like that...and...yeah she was angry...after apologosing certain people became being kinda rude to her and yeah...she flared up....FOR THE FIRST TIME....never seen like that before..got really scared....she's the kind of person that often gets despised by certain people who don't understand her...and she's different in a unique way..i must say....she often take the blame and compare herself to other teacher of her incapability......she kept saying sorry and stuff it made me feel bad....haas....hmms..oh well.....it takes quite some time to understand one's good intentions...she also kept reapeatinglike..."SO SORRY, I'M NOT AS GOOD AS MS CHANDRAN NOT AS FUNNY AS SHE IS...." I don't like the fact that she is self-reproaching..... its not her fault and she's trying her best to make her lessons interesting...but some irritating people in our just simply don't apreciate her intentions and often show disrespect to her...I DON'T LIKE THAT...she don't deserve this kind of treatment, she's a teacher and she ahs been really lenient to those certain idoits in our class....and they took it for GRANTED...how could they??? its really mean.....although she clearly knows that certain students don't like her and talk about her behind her back she tolerated all these nonsense and tehy took it for granted...and I DON'T DENY THAT I HAD GOSSIP ABOUT THAT ISSUE BEFORE...oh well that's past..and I'm starting to regret it yeah~....*everyone deserves a chance...* and certain people just refuse to give her that chance....hais..NVM...irritating idoits.....I'm surprised that she doesn't burst a blood vessel just by giving in to them..ALWAYS...*herh*
Quit talking about that issue.....AISHAH~ she's recently piled up with problems...and the only way I can help her is by informing Ms Chandran....but I'm afraid she might be upset...she doesn't want to inform her about it....but..I WANT TO HELP HER..seeing her so depressed..it really makes my heart ache.....I know I should have my stand in this kind of situation....but..yeah~ I'm confused.....seriously...~
Today..kinda horrid day though....not really that horrid....*if YOU're reading this....*
-SORRY, I really want to tell you but....I can't bring myself to....the words just drifted to my mouth but I just couldn't say it....I'm afraid of your reaction and what will you tiink of me....I could rite it all down but..I can't bring myself to show it to you.....I....I'm sorry.....I know you are seriously horridly curious....please believe me that I really want to tell you everything but at times I just am not courageous enough to say it all out let alone write it all down for you....I love you so much that I couldn't bear to let you know this ugly truth....you said you want to know....you'll be surprise and shocked...and these two words are not just written for the sake of writing...seriously.....forgive me....blame me for everything alright....sorry again..even though sorry isn't what you'll want to hear but I still want to say it....SORRY....to euu....*Loving someone isn't that easy....that's cause you'll soon realise that you are afraid to tell her everything...especially when its ugly...*