hiies people!!!! Lols...anyway..about my previous post...about the group project...it seems to be much better now somehow they seems to be working together now, it looks more like a group....but not all memebrs are doing things exactly....anyway yeah...like that lorhs..seriously i got so damn pissed off...before until now...and i just realised that when i'm seriously unhappy about certain things i can really be very direct....but yeah that's me...even though being too direct at times can really piss people off but i belive in that fact that 不喜欢就直接一点，干嘛拖泥带水，拉拉扯扯? 这样岂不是让 自己更痛苦？
anyway enough about project work....its fine anyways....and oh me and aishah....hmms....just last monday we sorted things out..but it seems like that was just the surface not the in-depth....i'm still feeling horrid about the distance...oh alright it sounds really bad and stuff saying these....but yeah..its still not solved anyways and I don't noe how to go about solving it....about syafiqah it seems there's alot of misunderstandings and looks like things are looking up now...we are going to be back like before!!!!~ and I understand that sometimes she does certain things and it seems like she has to do that....so I don't blame her....yeah...=）
Also at times I think that my family just hates me.....especially my biggest and smallest aunts....which also includes the peole staying with me at home that disgust me so much....they are always so cold in a sense they scold you and pick at you for every TINY LITLLE WEENY mistake you make....and they never cease to stop nagging and irritate you...just like my brother he just beat me days ago.....whatever!!!~ I seriously hate coming home to my family and the shack place I'm living at right now.....AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
I wished I could earn alot of money in future and move out of this shack as soon as possible....and away from a violent brother....I swear that in future If he'd be in any troubke and if he'd come begging to me on my knees to save him..... i hope i'd just sweep him aside....that idoit...I'd never forget how violent he used to beat me for the past few years....me, always in his mercy crying for help....for GOD to send a lightning and kill in an instant.....for my ego always stepped under his feet...and it'll never happen again...NEVER WILL IT EVER EVER HAPPEN AGAIN....call me a heartless idoit or a mean cold-blooded person....I don't want to give a DAMN.....people who call me that or tiink that way are people who'll never understand that pain and everything I might have gone through...which they haven't....these people might people taht don't understand me and might be those whose parents really love them, they have a complete family while I don't...they have relatives that are married and can't bother much about other families whioch is a good thing, unlike my aunts and uncles all not married and they seem to have nothing better to do except to irritate us and poke their nose into our family affair...yeah...maybe they care...that's the OBVIOUS REASONS AND THE NOT SO OBVIOUS???? they are busy-bodies and just want to find topic to talk about and pick on us endlessly....this is what I hate man...a bunch of idoitic creatures..whatever!!!~ HERH!!!